:: heretics and killers. ::

:: Thursday, February 23, 2012 ::

something on my mind

which i let slip hours ago.

anyway, there it is. after a glorious 6.5yrs with my beloved Sony Ericsson W810i, which i purchased second hand (true story), i finally made the decision to get myself a new handset.

i dont know if i'd consider myself a sellout but during lunch i've always wondered how a group of people can claim to be 'spending time together' but at the same time keeping quiet at the same table - all staring at their smartphones.

however with my blackberry phone in hand, i finally understood the reason to why people do that. it is rather twisted though, the people would choose to be entertained by those whose presence are on cyberspace, then to engage the ones there. nonetheless it is a matter of fact that there are just simply tons of things one can do on the telephone as opposed to just ONE singular act of conversing with your friends at the dining table.

i told my lunch buddy Gerald yesterday that i hope i wouldn't be suckered into that sort of culture and he, being the social media professional, cautioned me, saying that it's pretty hard to break out of that habit.

so the solution: dont start. i made it a point to not look at my phone during mealtime. or when im around people for that matter. in other words, dont start. i'll just pretend that im still in the company of my trusty SE W810i. there will simply be no habit to break out of to begin with.


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:: antimarx 12:06 AM [+] ::
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hierarchy

it doesnt matter what your profession really is. at the end of the day, you can never stop hierarchical layers from forming.

but its good to remember that we're all in the same cesspool of people eager to prove themselves in this rat race that i never wanted to partake in to begin with.



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:: antimarx 12:50 AM [+] ::
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running on empty

today is a very mentally tiring day. i hope i dont feel like this anymore.


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:: antimarx 12:47 AM [+] ::
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January 4th

its been a month and a day since i last blogged! i know i should keep this space more regularly updated but of late i tend to let ideas bounce off to no effect here.

so instead of letting my thoughts slip off again, i'll pen it down here.

nothing's changed during the past month or so except the fact that im officially a studying adult once more. having paid a good sum of hard earned money out of my own pocket (ouch!) i'll soon be embarking on my journey towards being a professionally accredited accountant.

notwithstanding that, this is probably the most unthinkable path if you were to ask the talib from 5years ago. back then i was still pondering if i'd stick to arts than to drop out and do accountancy and suffice to say, retrospectively such a bold move paid dividends cuz i find myself being able to withstand unemployment ergo having a job that has:-

1) proper progression
2) good monetary prospect
3) respectability in the eyes of the people who doubted me before

nonetheless it still is a daunting task; no career is easy if you're ambition, that is.

alright, enough about boring ol' work.

i've posted this many times before and i'll post it again. im kinda concerned about the shadows that i see dancing at the corner of my eye. i always feel that there's a presence, and today it happened again - twice. i know im one to have an overly imaginative mind but these sightings better stop cuz its beginning to irritate me, if it doesnt induce a heart attack first.


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:: antimarx 12:55 AM [+] ::
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hello angsty 2012

welcome, brand new year. with every passing moment, i set my sights on whats to come.

of late i've been thinking about the first time i received a phonecall from the HR department, telling me that i've been selected for a job interview. the excitement, happiness, joy.

sometimes i feel bad for taking the job that i have for granted, knowing how desperate i was back then to land a starting point. when i bring myself back to those moments, i recall being so desperate that i would even jump at the opportunity to do the "unglam" accounting jobs (eg. AR/AP, data entry stuff).

and this brings me to my next point: target 2012.

suffice to say, i've managed to achieve the set targets for the past consecutive years: 2010 and 2011. this is where it gets challenging i guess. i call this year my 'professional development' year. and below are the list of things i'm going to accomplish:

1) sign up for my CPA professional examinations. complete and pass two semesters by year end.

2) pick up a third language. as it stands right now, French is the language of choice.

the optional target:

3) golf.


hahaha. we'll see how this pans out when the year ends...


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:: antimarx 12:38 AM [+] ::
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lies

you lied to me when you said you could do it.

you lied to me when you promised on your own accord.

and you lied to me when you agreed on a compromise.

lies. all lies that i will never forget.


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:: antimarx 11:47 PM [+] ::
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whatever

im surrounded with too many people who dont stick to their words.



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:: antimarx 2:01 PM [+] ::
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